Well..this entry not important.not even one single word..But it matters alot to me.So...i write it down to feel RELIEVED.So..see or dont see nevermind.=]
Sometimes..I just do not want to let go of something which is so precious.But i just gave it away.Why?Because i love that person dearrly or the friendship i could trust on.When a person feels down..of cause you would want your loved ones to care and show some concern.But,i just do not know how to express myself.When i am happy..i show excitement?!When i am sad.i show depression?!Everything is so different.It is like.you got the first part correct and the rest wrong.I just don't know why.And when I have something.Like...lets say for example,a crystal.and it has been with me for sooooo many years.Suddenly,your friend comes up to you and says.hey!Thats a nice piece of crystal!And...issit for me?Or they will just say.Whoa!Nice!gimme can?And when they do not know that it has so much value to you,they persuade you to give it to them.Something which you would get quite irratated of.And then..you give it up..And the next day,you realised that..it was not properlly taken care of.Your friend might have just dumped it away somewhere to a cupboard or something.So when you ask them,Hey.So...How do you find the crystal i gave you the day before?They just tell you.Oh.I left it somewhere at home.And where is the somewhere?Somewhere messy lorh...That is if they do not appriciate eur gift for them...But the best thing is.I received a necklace.And although it is something that will tarnish after several times of wear due to the touch of water something like that.But it means alot to me.Even though my cousin thinks that it is so plain and i dunno what else she said.She might think that its just a necklace..something so easy to get.But it comes from the heart!!!Like i gave her a dolphin and a teddy bear which i had won for myself.Intending to give it to someone special.But i gave it to her instead!I should have kept it isn't it?*Sigh*I do not even know if she chucked it in one corner or by her bed's cabinet.She stuffs all her soft toys there you see.Even the Winnie The Pooh BEar which i had given to her about a few months or a year ago.Dumped.Chucked at a corner.Very hurting..Well...I did do that before.But at least i arranged it propelly mah!
